The New Me!!!!

I'm finally back~~the real me =)
last 2months i was moody and sad for something...
my close friends all knew what was happened on me...
but then i'm now fully recovered from my sadness!!!!
i'm really feel glad to have my friends who support me all the time!
when i need help...they always lend me their hands!
no doubt...they worried me when i look not ok =S
sorry to let you guys worry about me!!!
i'm fine actually...just sometimes feel so tired and need time to clear my mind...
remain silent doesn't mean i am moody...but i need some times to chill myself...
i've learnt many things these few months...
some are painful lesson...but..they make me more mature and independent =)
i'm trying to be optimist and have positive thinking!
i know i can make it...just the matter of time!!
after some incidents...i've more close connection with my friends...
they also told me that they understand me more...

some people will ask me either i feel regret for any decision i had made...
i will answer them NO with full of confident...
no why,but there is no point for me to regret..
even i had made a wrong decision...
feel regret cant make things change but will only make myself feel uneasy...
so i never feel regret for any decision i had made in my life...
sometimes i may choose for wrong pathway..but i will continue to finish the path i've choose..
even it is harder and painful...
nevertheless..i believe that you will gain more experience from the lesson...
you will learn how to solve your problems by your own...
it can makes you stronger...
feeling of pain is just temporary...it can be healed by time...
but those lesson will always in your mind and remind you..

i need to say thanks for those who ever hurt me...
they make me stronger and know to appreciate what i'm having now...
thanks for those who help me before...
when someone bad for you...you will know people who around you are really by your side and support you all the time!!!
well...some people said something hurtful to you...
you may feel sad,emotional and moody for days...
but then...why don't take those hurtful sentences as a lesson??
learn from mistakes and stand up again...
after cried...tell myself that nothing can beat myself down!!
stand up again...your true friends and family will definitely help you!
don't always think that how pity we are...
we may not know at the another side of the Earth..
there are much more people who suffering as well...
many people can still continue to live as they courage enough to face the problems...
you will never feel alone as they are also suffering with you...
so lets be strong!!!

tell myself i can make it!!!
yes....i did it!!!
smile always as everyone looks good with a smiling face!!!
let things go doesn't mean you don't care and mind about it...
but to let yourself feel better...
forgive people and treat yourself better~
it's time to say bye bye to sad face and welcome my smile come back to my face!!!

Finally~

yes!!! finally my final test is over =)
many things happened these few weeks~~~
of course there are bad news and also good news for myself...
bad news is...final is so hard T.T
especially the Chemistry....
students complained about those questions are too hard for us!
absolutely!!!!how can we finish 30MCQ, 7structures within 1hour30mins??
i'm quite disappointed with my chemistry paper...i'm definitely fail!
when comes to math,applied math considered okies,but not for pure math...>.<
made tonnes of careless mistakes!! ok fine..it's over~
no comment for biology and general paper~ =X
to make matter worse...these few days i can really feel the stress and pressure..
this made me cant answer questions in well condition...
but then final is finally over...i got no chance to regret at all...
thus,look forward~!!! =)

second thing to share is I'm finally "legal" 18!!!! hahahah...
before the week we have final test was my birthday...
my coursemates and best friends gave me lot of suprises~!!!
i'm really appreciate what they did for me!!!
so far it is my most memorable birthday!!!
what they did are really touch!!! i'm glad to have such friends...
i did enjoy the days we all spent together and crazy together!!!
my coursemates all co-operate to "cheat" me and give me a suprise at college =)
after school we then went to KLCC for our dinner at Dessert Bar...
and the next day..my best friends bought me Secret Recipe cake to my house when i go for my piano lesson...
after celebrated at my house..my friend gave me a small suprise...
that was our little secret when we were young =)
yeah..really thanks...i feel much much more better after those hard times...
and my last suprise will be a horror movie T.T the "Child's Eyes"
first time watch this kind of horror movie...
of course it's not fun!!!! scared me a lot!!!!! what a "good" present!
besides that..i've also received many gifts from my friends~

after my birthday...
i spent almost all my time to study for my final in the following week~
haha....that one nothing much can share about....
but within the days...i can feel who is really care of me when i feel tension...
thank who ever helped me in my life...
you guys make my life more coulorful and meaningful~

My Life~~

test 3 is coming soon....>.<
i dont wish to die for my test 3!!!!!!
i shall study everyday...but i'm so so so lazy!!!
i dont even finish my tutorial works =X
so bad of me!!!!! =(
cant go out that often lately until i finish my test 3....
i'm wondering...is it my friends are all study hard for their test???
how do i control myself not to online that much???
but i used to chat with my friends in msn on night..
because after came back from college...i feel my mental is so tired...
but luckily...my friends also make me smile and laugh...
because we are the crazy one!!! hehe....
i dont think i will spend so much time at here after this post..
due to i need to study....no choice...A-level is not joking...
anyway...i feel happy lately...
because i'm always keep in touch with my parents...
i talk to them for so long every night...
daddy will shares with me what lectures talked about when he attended for lectures..
sometimes i also buy my parents foods n goods...
i love my parents!!!! =)
i wish i am a good daughter....
even thought i have something hide from them...
but i wish they still believe in me...
wish all my friends love their parents as much as possible...
because we dont even know how long we can spend our time with them..
as they getting older day to day...

Here I Am~~

okies...it feels a lilttle bit weird for me...
wondering why I'm so easy to get emo lately....
but i'm trying to chill myself~~~
because i'm always tell myself that i am a happy girl =)
i guess most of my friends have the same feeling...
sometimes we just don't feel like to do something that others ask or request for...
we wish to reject...but...
in some conditions...we just don't have the right to choose...
it might be our fault or it might carries some bad effects if we never follow...
sigh..we got no choice...we can only obey...
i don't like this kind of feeling...
honestly i'm not an obedient girl...
everyone can just say me as a naughty girl...
and i admit i am...when comes to this i never try to hide...
and i know i am quite straight forward...
may be i grew older...my mind is more mature?? i think just a lilttle bit more mature..
some how i don't want to see anyone feel disappointed when i never follow what they say...
thus i will do what they wish to...
it may sounds so wrong...but what to do besides that??
it is hard to change the environment and others...
why not i'm just start from myself and change myself to adapt it???
yet...i am still immature now...
but i have confident that i am getting more mature day to day...
sometimes...i'll just find myself some works...
and clear my mind,keep on thinking when i'm doing the works...
i started to understand myself...
i will always think to negative side initially....
but i wonder why...there is always a power or a kind of spirit??
i'm not so sure as well...
will always changes my mind and think to positive side...
at last...i always make myself smile...no doubt that is not pretending to be happy..
that is...i found out to view the incident from another degrees...
for some people...they may think it's a kid of silly action which idiots trying to make themselve happy and escape from problems...
but...why cant we let ourselve live happily???
even how sad we are...does the sadness can help us???
no right??? it will only makes us down...
the way for me is...
i may looks quiet and serious at first...because at that time i was thinking about some serious business...
well...after that i will never continue to sad...
i will chill myself and cheer myself up...
everyone has their own way to make themselve happier...
and i want to tell myself that...

"no one can hurt you,unless yourself...
people can cheer you up...but you have to stand up by yourself...
every difficulty can be solved if you want to...
all problems have their own solutions...
if there is no solution for the problem,it is not a problem anymore..
obstacles cant hit you down if you're not willing to give up and let yourself fall down!!!"

you are who you are...no joking with your life...
how long can one person live on this planet???
even it is 80years or more...
it's still not enough time to let you finish all the things you want to do...
so why we are here to waste our time to sad???!!!
smart people will never do anything that useless for them...
so you are one of the smart people or????

Holidays~~~

hoho....finally i'm here to update my blog....
actually imma kinda lazy to update my blog...due to my laziness...
so i'm going to have a great 1 week holidays!!!!
okies...just share something about my studies kay???
actually I never regret to choose A-level....
no why...just because it is helping me to build a strong base before go to degree...
I'm nt trying to offend others...
but A-level is really studying a wide range of things...
I'm glad that i met all my friends at college...
some of them did motivated me to study...
I've learnt many things too...
another thing is...may be i grew older...
i have more social activities with my friends...
like go shopping with my sisters....
go high tea,PC fair and so on...
I'm now in love with busy life...it makes me feel that my life is so fulfill...
but my wallet is crying too XD sometimes spend too much...
i have to plan nicely before go out!!!!
okies...i'm waiting my holidays for so long!!!
because...it's my last holidays before my year end exam >.<
i will apppreciate the times...but i still need to do revision at home...
if not i will die badly in my test 3~A.K.A year end exam...
i wonder why...i love to do exercise lately...
last time...i was extremely hate the feeling of sweating..
because it made me felt so dirty,sticky and uncomfortable...
but now...it's not...
after sport and sweating...then go for a bath...
you will feel that your body is so fresh and even your mind also...
you will be so energytic for the following hours...
all my friends are also enjoying their holidays~~ =)
so lets crazy on our holidays!!!!

Random one~

me and suet li...she got sick lately~

hmm....home alone again~~~but i love home alone =)
opsss....not so good...because...i hurt my legs and hands today =.=

the floor is so steep lar!!! plus i never pay attention while i was walking because i felt so sleepy...

then fall down >.<>

and my white pant and white shirt get dirty!!!!

ehem!!! so careless!!!! and there was only a sentence stared on my mind...

"NO SCARS PLEASE!!!!!"

the sense of pain is doesn't matter to me...

but i dont wish any scar left on my legs!!!!

and daddy brought us back durians~~~

so nice!!! yummy!!!! i've ate durians for 3 or 4times within a month...

my god...but usually my daddy will purchase the organic one... =P

erm....all people are busy lately...who can let my distrub??

and test 2 is coming soon....need to study hard...

but sometimes i really cannot concentrate in class....

no doubt...because i feel sleepy all the time...

while lecturer is talking and explaining a question...

i listened for 30% and another 70% was gave back to lecturer...

as a conclusion...i don't understand the question at all... XD

thus i need to spend more time on catch up the syllabus...

usually i sleep on 12.00am then wake up on 5.30am...

i admit i am a pig....5hours30minutes sleeping time is totally not enough for me...

same to some of my friends as well...

and my close friend,Suet Li got sick last few days...

pity her man....but soon she will be ok ^^

Dinner~

I had a dinner with my relatives =)
we celebrated grandma's birthday last night at restaurant~~
my relatives were shocked when they saw me...
because i changed a lot compare to last year XD
may be i keep my hair long and wore contact lens...
so it's quite big different from last time...
i chat non-stop with my sister cousins...
they so funny lar....but same to me XD
we shared our experinces and gossip!!!!
yeah~~~girls love gossip!!!!
i learnt many things from them too ^^
i ate a lot~~~because i love to eat!!!!
hmmm....i thought we got not much to talk about..
due to we had months never meet...
but what i worried about is just an extra...
because they are too friendly to be!!
some more 3 of us are really match...
without 15minutes...we can talk like we met for few days...
no secret..the real of us =)
i still remember how childish and funny we were while we were just kids...
it's so sweet!!! and nice memories i ever had =)
i'm glad that we still have the chance to meet and chat...
i think we should find a day and have a high tea!!!
besides that....my cousins are more handsome and pretty...
i wish all of us have a good life and bright future...
let's fight for our future ^^